Whispered Rants from the Tuttle-Tuttle Tree

Random thoughts, rantings, and musings. Displayed for all to see, because sometimes it's saner to rant to random strangers than to rant to yourself. Also, the voices in my head don't always appreciate it when I talk back to them. Go figure.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Cranky muse...

Gotterdammerung

I'll help you fight your demons
Just don't make me one of them
I'll help you wipe your tears
Just don't make me the cause of them
I'll help you ban your ghosts
Just don't ban me too
I'll help you reach your star
Just don't blanket the moon
I'll be there to lean on, to listen,
to encourage, to help you in your battle
Just don't forget me
Once your war has been won


Life is Funny

It takes streams of words
To get us moving,
But only one
To gorgonize us.

It’s things that should not hurt us
That always make us bleed.

It’s the fear of loss
That makes us hold on tight
Yet it’s holding on tight
That smothers and kills
and causes us to lose

It’s the feathered touches
That cut like a thorn.

It’s the random acts
From unexpected places
That we see and take note of,
Not the ones given freely
On a daily basis
By those who love us.

It’s the silent, waiting hug
That makes us spill our hearts.

It’s the ones who see
Everyone else’s worth
Who have the hardest time
Seeing their own.

It’s only when we stand still
That we can see and choose
The path before us.

It’s putting blinders on,
And running as fast as we can
That makes us run in circles.

It’s the kick from behind
That makes us see
What is in front.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

*phew!*

That pretty much sums it up. *phew!* (it was worth saying again. ;p ) Migraine is gone, school supplies have been bought, dispersed and delivered, In-laws are on their way back to Michigan, kids are off to their first day of school and the house is...-wait a minute..*runs and turns tv off, gives the dogs each a chew-snack on my way back in*..there..-and the house is QUIET. For the first time in weeks...months?! And it's all mine for another almost 2 hours! Wheeee! *puts blinders on for those two hours so she can't see any of the clutter left by the departure tornado this morning* Nothing that can't wait till later today or even till tomorrow. The ONLY damper on this morning was a call from school nurse and the discovery that if we hadn't gotten into the doctor's office yesterday (we were on a waiting list to get in for crying out sakes) then the little one would have had to wait a week or more to start kindergarden. He would have been DEVASTATED. As is she still almost had me come pick him up and was appalled that I'd brought him without handing her his file first. (still waiting on the doc back in Michigan to fax his shot records) But all is well :) Things worked out. SO SO so so so SO Glad we managed to get in yesterday. YEESH. Anyway, yes, I'm rambling, the house is quiet and I'm giddy. You're all just gonna have to deal with me today. *wink* *hugs*

Monday, August 07, 2006

Side Effects

Life is full of cause and effect. So many are obvious, and we can't help but see them, notice them, learn from them. But what about the ones that are less noticeable? The one's we either don't notice at all, or simply brush off as nothing before we can make a full connection. How many lessons are we missing? How much grief would we save ourselves if we simply stopped and paid attention. How many small happinesses are we missing because we don't know how to repeat them?

This is something that's been on my mind lately, and I've been trying to pay extra attention to what I'm doing, what others are doing, and what is happening around me. Thought I'd list a few.

*The side effect of not being careful of what you watch on TLC late at night? Dreaming really weird two nights later. (Ya, I thought I was out of the woods when that first night was normal...I was wrong )

*The side effect of getting a full night's sleep, yet dreaming all night long that you have an inoperable tumor? Waking up feeling like a zombie. A state which no amount of coffee or net-surfing is able to cure.

*The side effect of putting the puppy to bed early, then being too tired to remember just how early you sent him to bed and neglecting to send him on a last trip outside before you go to bed? You may have a quiet evening, but the next morning you wake to the desperate yaps of a pup who wasn't able to make the whole night. You wake to using two entire rolls of paper towel on a kitchen floor that has been flooded, jumped in, rolled in, bounced off the cabinets.....it's not pretty.

*The side effect of your puppy having a pee party in your kitchen? Your nose gets assailed with the aroma of pee, vinegar, and mopping fluid by turns at 7:30 am.

*The side effect of the pee party happening on the same morning as the zombie morning? Enter the NUMB zombie girl, hugging her empty coffee mug and staring off at nothing for a few hours.

*The side effect of your hubby petting and scratching your back like you're an aggitated kitty cat, until you drift off for a nap? You fall asleep purring and feeling loved, and wake up two hours later feeling good and connected to the rest of the planet again.

*The side effect of feeling loved and connected to your world? You feel like making someone else's day great.

*The side effect of giving your kids choices, when you're sure of their answer? You are always getting surprised. Should be impossible by now, since they are always deciding opposite of what you think they will, but apparently it's not. ('Sure things' are a myth, people!)

*The side effect of moving to the oppposite side of a new time zone? Your child, who likes to wake at the crack of dawn, no longer gets up with the sun at 6:30/7:00. Now he gets up with the sun at 5:3-0/6:00.

*The side effect of your youngest offspring overhearing you and your spouse converse about how disturbing and wrong it is for the latest kiddie movie to have MALE 'cows' with UDDERS? He flatly refuses to go see said movie two weeks later on the grounds that 'those cows are too weird', and instead wants to see a movie about a kid getting shrunk and living in a colony of ants.

*The side effect of sitting and staring at your computer screen and checking your messages obsessively? Nothing. Doesn't make anyone respond any faster. A sore butt maybe?

*The side effect of playing amateur counselor to a close friend or relative? You stop and realize just how much of your own wonderful advice you haven't been taking.

*The side effect of taking some of your own advice? You discover it works for you too, and you start trying to pay better attention.

*The side effect of paying better attention? You end up with lists like this one. You also end up happier.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Muahahahaha

*filled with frustration at how ineffectual all the "NO!'s" and thwaps on the nose have been in deterring the puppy from gnawing on shoes and the carpetted stair...she goes and douses said items with Tea Tree oil*



Just let him get a mouthful of THAT, the lil demon!!